PhoenixGR

Ambitious Aspirations

Since the 9th of August and until the end of October I have a running exhibition in the local Anarchist and most certainly the most hip cafe/bar In town.  I have put up my recent works which include my first ever comic and a couple of massive surreal paintings whose bright colours are a real eye-catcher. I have so far sold one and received praise from the community so much so that I may be featured in an upcoming magazine.

I since two weeks ago I have committed myself to a friend driven game development project. I am in charge of of the graphic design and although the transition from acrylic painting to digital was not difficult, my short attention span when looking at a screen is very annoying. However I am incredibly motivated this year to excell in digital painting so much so that I can venture forth into concept art to gain a foothold in the creative industry.

I have always been a geek,  so I know more about games than I do about grammar. But I'm teaching grammar for money, and not making concept art. I see a giant fault in this.

Four years after I have graduated from my English BA and I have spent my time learning through odd jobs and drawing in bars or streets. It was trial through error and I did more errors than I can count. As a result I have quit binge drinking,  and always stay clear of tobacco. I have limited my caffeine as it keeps me awake for way too many hours and I try to keep my diet healthy with  plenty of fluids, fruits and vegetables. I have yet to find the motivation to go for a run,  but I do go for long walks and if I spend too much time at the desk I will do some pushups to stretch my muscles.

My plan for the year 2019 is to enter the illustration field and balance a teaching career for maximum profit. Exercise is a must as I'm borderline anorexic and I feel like my body is entering a second puberty but my mind is racing ahead of its time.

Also I want to learn how to play the bass guitar.

Thanks for watching me

I've reached a point in life, where all i want to do, is buy a bicycle and randomly pedal across a Greek island, painting landscapes and taverns and villages and roads, and beaches and mountains, and rely on canned food and dried biscuits, water from fountains and beer from strangers. 

I don't know what job to do, I don't want to sit in a classroom and teach English, I dont want to sit in a cubicle surrounded by cubicles and pick up phone calls. I dont mind doing random manual labour but between the intense work there's also too much time sitting around doing nothing.

Im 25. My only practical skill is that i can draw. Does tying knots count? I guess the Scouts were good at preparing me for BDSM practices. 

I've been commissioned for 3 paintings for a jazz bar in Athens. This will bring me some good money. I hope. 

Im preparing a magnus opus. Have you heard of Terry Prachett,, Douglas Adams, H.P.Lovecraft, Frank Herbert, Frank Miller, and of course, Danny Luvisi?
 Well i figure its time i started putting my art skills to use. Its not by any means an original idea, its been done thousands of times by artists before me. But if i wanna gain entrance to the wondrous world of Illustration and concept art, i figure i best start concept illustrating. 

Im not good with names. I forget girl's names all the time. So it's quite hard for me to come up with original titles and names for this new project. But Magnum Opus will suffice for now. 

Of course I'm also not good at writing stories, im just good at reading them. So that's something i need to get working on, If i ever wake up, if i ever log off. 

So thats me for December 2017. Also washing dishes and stuff. 

Came back refreshed from a road trip, only to do absolutely nothing but sleep for 12 hours a day, and read hesse or king/ surf facebook/youtube feeds for infinity. 

way to go Alex, howabout looking for a real job? noooo lets draw some nude girls swimming first. Okay then what, lets put porn on repeat with metal in the background. K then ?

Then i dont know. guess i should do something. Whats that, wake and ... i dont know what im doing. 

I tell myself you should volunteer and get out and about, do i do that? no i sleep through the day.
I tell myself you should ride your bike out of town and paint new places and meet new people. 
I tell myself it will get better when you leave this town and find a new persona

I tell myself i will pull myself together. tomorrow. the next day. when i wake up.

I tried to get a CELTA certificate to teach english, nah couldnt do it. wasted 1.500 euros on something i knew i wouldnt pass. 

I keep trying new art techniques like liquid painting and mixed mediums, i keep drawing girls to hide my homosexuality, i keep pretending im someone im not. 

So 

After days of supposed jobhunting that always resulted in 12hr shifts of Videogames and Memes, 

I booked tickets to go to Icaria to see my friend Maria,

Im going to be driving a 125cc scooter across some very dodgy mountain cliffs 

in the beautiful land of Icaria, Greece. 

Looking forward to painting and hopefully ill upload new work in a weeks time

I've decided doing nothing but art is counterproductive so im heading off to Athens to do a teaching seminar, being a perfectionist i chose the most difficult and stressful course available.

I hope i survive.

I have never actually taught a class of 12 people, only done some private tutoring, so this is going to be... bizarre.

I hope i don't crack under pressure, i hope i don't humiliate myself too much with my obvious lack of grammatical knowledge.

I will not have time to do much sleeping but i hope i to continue sketching in cafes because all study and no art makes alex a dull boy. 

That's all for now, i have to go tackle 50 questions of language skills urghhh... on the plus side its getting me doing stuff in a way i haven't worked since my last year of Uni